Great writing as usual! I was in a dark place about 15 years ago and lost my job and had young kids and a wife that was threatening to divorce me. But I put one foot in front of the other and got progressively better jobs and the kids got easier as they got older and my wife and I figured out our shit. All I’m saying is eventually it will get easier. A better job will come along. You’ll eventually meet someone. Hang in there.